bjornwilde: (The Scarlet Siouxsie)
 Part of my recent self care is trying to do a daily meditation. Nothing huge, just five minutes in the car before I walk into work. Today I forgot and so just took five minutes in my cube, using a guided meditation on youtube. The search 5 min meditation auto filled to either "5-min calming meditation" "5-min mindfulness meditation" or "5-min goth meditaion"...wait, what? I'm all for dark expressions and aesthetics, but goth meditations?

Of course I had to look and there was no results that were actually goth, but I am amused that someone had to have entered that search stream right?
bjornwilde: (i don't know what i expected)
And once more I am on another day of little sleep. Third day in a row now where I've only managed 6 hours and let me tell you, I am noticing a decrease in my mental faculties. (I had to pause there and figure out how to spell 'row'.)

In the quest of self improvement, I came across an essay about how anxiety can present as anger and it was like a light from above switched on. I've always been fearful of my temper, often thinking of it as the classic Irish stereotype, but all the times I've lost it or snapped, I'm usually feeling overwhelmed, threatened, or panicked. I need to dig deeper into this, but it seems legit and has helped me take a deep breath and step back when I feel like attacking or yelling.

I've also come to realize I suffer much more from impostor syndrome than fear or laziness when it comes to creative things. Like I know I am creative and always have ideas for making art or stories, I can't stop the ideas, but any time I think about making them happen, I hit a wall. I've always read it as fear of making the thing badly or a general laziness, i.e. writing takes so long, but i think it's more a little voice in my head telling me I'm faking it. I'd like to know where I got that voice so I can pommel it.

OK. Time for pain meds, caffeine, and music to see if I can find my way out of my mental fog.
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 OK, feeling better from this morning's broadside of bad news. Lost my words, but I've been looking at faces for a sandbox pup with some success. Why aren't there more movies with a teenaged, female scientist type of character? Image searches mostly give me manic or sexy mad scientist when I'm looking for more Hammer/Universal calm and collected in a bitchin' Edwardian style attire.

Now I'm soothing with music. We'll see if words find me or not.
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 I seemed to have burned my creative spoons with hunting new icons for Elayne today. I've been using Helen Mirren, who is lovely, but about a decade too old for the character. I would just run with it, but she didn't quite fit.

Somehow I came across Robin Wright in House of Cards and thought, "Oh she could work" and so I looked, and I think she will work very well indeed. Although I must admit it wasn't until I saw her older and smiling with the short hair that she pinged proper. She also has a very nice and long film career and so I have lots to use for different parts of Elayne's long life. (And when the IMDB flu comes around, she can be the general from WW who trains Diana.)

I've set up my choices here in the post to see them all together.
bjornwilde: (01: Danny Rand)
 If I weren't so adverse to going AU with pups, it'd be tempting to use this rewrite of Iron Fist as milli-canon. So. Damn. Tempting.
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Game to check out:
 Knowhere

bjornwilde: (02: Clarice & Lorna)
 Yes, we love the character, both from the comics and Days of Future Past. Yes, we love the idea of playing in the Sentinel guarded, mutant dystopia. But, simply put, you've only see her in the trailer for all of 5 seconds, she doesn't speak a word, and that interview with Jamie Chung isn't a whole lot to go by.

And stop shipping Clarice with Lorna. You have no idea if there's chemistry or not.

Sheesh.

[This post brought to you by love of Exiles, Blink, Jamie Chung, and missing active lesbians in bar.}
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With my pup reshift, I realized I need to update my pup icons with the new ones and perhaps adjust their pairings.

Ahsoka & Chance: girls who leap into helping people regardless of the cost or if they'll get in trouble for it.
Sabine & Selina: rebel girls
Hank & Touji: Guys who worry they're monsters/have body issues
Izana & Sam: My socially adapt peeps
Danny & Elayne: Peeps who will do what they think is right regardless of the consequences? Or maybe mystic pups?
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Muse musing behind the cut, since I am silly and don't want to clutter your DW feed.

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 Still enjoying Limbus, Inc, although I am getting wary as so far each story has been about a brute type character facing weird situations. I am in awe of the short story collections concept, think MIB as a temp agency rather than a policing force, but there needs to be more than thug jobs, okay? The concept is ripe for good and unique stories.

In other news, I'm likely to let Rollo go the coming app cycle. I going write a post to the Vikings come to give warning, but he's never stuck around long in threads and I haven't heard him in some time. I will offer him for OOM threads and/or adoption if anyone is interested, but I think it's time to let him go.

Which opens the way for Elayne Kevarian from the Craft Sequence. I'm not ready to app her just yet, I want to play her some in the sandboxes to be sure of her voice, but I'm really on board with the idea.

I also seem to be haunted with Chance Falconer, who is like Nancy Drew meets Kolchak the Nightstalker. Her canon is close and has been for at least 20 years, so there's lots I can do with her. Before anything happens, I need to thread with her and find her TPB collections to reread. But come on, inquisitive girl with dragon, what's not to love?

Both pups have a sandbox post here if you are curious.
bjornwilde: (01: Danny Rand)
Thinking about Danny Rand and the problems with Iron Fist I would need to address and fix if I were to play him in Milliways. Spoilers behind the cut.

tl;dr: Iron Fist has many problems and uses problematic tropes to tell its story. Among them are; All Asians are one, Mighty Whitey/White Savior, and a toxic portrayal of masculinity. Why would I chose to work with such a canon, even if I intend to fix the problems? Well, I’m a fan of the Iron Fist mythos and I love the sweet innocence Danny Rand has at his core.

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bjornwilde: (01: Danny Rand)
And it would've been so much better with an Asian person as the lead. It also could've been much better had Coleen's story been a large part of the narrative. Wasted potentials.

I get what they were aiming for but the problem of the themes they were using is that we've seen this story from the white male hero so many times it's become trite at best and cliche at worst. Having the story told from the point of view of someone Asian would have at least brought something new to the table.

Also, Marvel, why is your male hero journey all about growing up? Like ALL of them. Well, Cap might be an exception. (Not counting the ladies in this observation.)

I still like Danny and will be apping him next month, I think. I need to sit and write out the themes, problems, and possible solutions. I'd be so tempting to face swap him with an Asian actor, but a) I don't think that would be allowed for Milliways, b) I don't think it's my place to tell the story of an Asian American trying to reclaim his family and heritage, and c) I know I wouldn't have the see thru to play the pup in the Sandboxes that way.
bjornwilde: (01: Danny Rand)
 And Iron Fisy swings back to intriguing territory by actually addressing anger issues, and not just Danny's. They also revealed why he left K'un Lun and even why he chose to become the Iron Fist in the first place, and both reasons are good ones. Not proper or noble mind you, but good and reasonable.

And I was a little too pleased with Danny wearing Luke Cage's teeshirt for all of ep 11, given to him by Claire. I will laugh so much if the first story arc of Defenders or the catalyst that brings them together is Claire being kidnapped.
bjornwilde: (01: Danny Rand)
 Oh Danny, Danny, Danny...or should be saying that at the writers? The season started out so well with him...need I say spoilers?

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 Make your own SW pilot helmet.

Of course I couldn't resist making my own, and I figure Specter squadron is Sabine's squadron.
bjornwilde: (01: Hank-n-Touji)
 OK, I think I need to try writing the OOM ideas I have for Touji while not at work. I keep having what seem to be inspired ideas at home or in the car but then when I sit down at work, there's this wall of interference. Like Touji just does not appreciate the office or something. Very in character to be honest.
bjornwilde: (01: Hank-n-Touji)
Wait, there's a Tokyo Ravens inspired music album?!? And of course, Spotify doesn't have it. Maybe I can find youtube links.

IN other news, having a hard time finding a writing brain today.
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 For reference, TuneFind, gives you music used in shows, no matter how briefly. Song titles only.

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