Dodging the Bullet...
Dec. 11th, 2001 09:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bjornwildeZoe is sick with the flu. Big time but getting better. All things considered she’s not that bad of a patient. ; } Her Mom is sick with the same thing. She was well enough to go to work yesterday, though only worked for ¾ of the day, and went to work today. Zoe’s brother and his wife are Patients Zero, or Influenza R's. Somehow I have yet to get sick, at least with the Flu. My sinuses are making noises like they want to be head coldie. Battling with Cold Eaze and Halls with Vitamin C.
Been frustrating Zoe the past few days, well last week and weekend. I have been flaking on chores, although Sunday I went briefly into Badger Mode and set up the Charlie Brown X-mas tree in the front yard, gathered all the X-mass lights I could find and cleaned the kitchen. Well, did the dishes but then magically another set of dirty dishes got created.
Why have I been shirking chores and going face down in books? I am still having strong desires to do something for myself or spend some time with myself. So without realizing it, I have been stealing time or forcing time for myself. This isn’t what I need or want cause when I do this it creates tension with Zoe and well I am stealing not creating, big difference. Right now my strongest desire is to go out camping all by myself. Vision quest, bellybutton searching or just me time, I don’t know. But several things are preventing that, bad weather and transportation. Guess I’ll have to wait until spring for that. It is tempting to get a Hotel Room for a weekend, but spending the cash is wrong and it wouldn’t be the same.
Anyway, last night I went Badger before I lost inertia and cleaned the kitchen and changed the rats nest. Tonight I will be taking out the garbage (trash night), cleaning the cat boxes (both Zoe and Az will appreciate that), doing kitchen maintenance cleaning and maybe attack the bathroom, its getting bad. No, it is bad. I think I will, also, change the rat's cage or at leats see if it needs to be done.
Finally finished the ‘Fellowship of the Ring’, moved onto, and finished, ‘Temple of the Winds’, fourth book in my current favorite series, The Sword of Truth (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/search-handle-form/102-0593158-3502538) And have moved on to Neil Gaiman’s ‘Neverwhere’. If you haven’t read it, READ IT.
All of this is making the Gaslight Changeling scratchings at the back of my head stronger. I think I am going to take the plunge and start the game. I am kind of unsure how I will be as a ST since it has been a while, but I used to be good so I’ll see. No official announcement yet though... I want to finalize some of the ideas first. Maybe start the game in January, but that might be too soon. I do plan on offering the game to the Southbay list to see if I can find some new victims, err players. ; } I, also, have this sick desire to rename as many of the talent, skills and knowledges to words more "turn of the century". I figure it will help create the atmosphere.
I’ve recently decided I need to externalize something creative each day. I have been having a flood of creative ideas but have been keeping them all in my head or making notes on my Palm but doing nothing with them. I think the writing will happen much more once I get a power supply for the extra laptop Zoe has. But other creative projects can be done. Art (I have some neat ideas I want to try out), drawings, Zoe's eyes (For her website, she has been more than patient considering she asked me to make them over forever ago), Yen's coffin cabinet, ect, ect, ect...
*End Transmission
Riddle me this. How come when I have to take the train to work I get here on time but when I get a ride from Zoe and get more of a chance for sleep, I am late? Guess I get lured into a false sence of "I can sleep more".
Been frustrating Zoe the past few days, well last week and weekend. I have been flaking on chores, although Sunday I went briefly into Badger Mode and set up the Charlie Brown X-mas tree in the front yard, gathered all the X-mass lights I could find and cleaned the kitchen. Well, did the dishes but then magically another set of dirty dishes got created.
Why have I been shirking chores and going face down in books? I am still having strong desires to do something for myself or spend some time with myself. So without realizing it, I have been stealing time or forcing time for myself. This isn’t what I need or want cause when I do this it creates tension with Zoe and well I am stealing not creating, big difference. Right now my strongest desire is to go out camping all by myself. Vision quest, bellybutton searching or just me time, I don’t know. But several things are preventing that, bad weather and transportation. Guess I’ll have to wait until spring for that. It is tempting to get a Hotel Room for a weekend, but spending the cash is wrong and it wouldn’t be the same.
Anyway, last night I went Badger before I lost inertia and cleaned the kitchen and changed the rats nest. Tonight I will be taking out the garbage (trash night), cleaning the cat boxes (both Zoe and Az will appreciate that), doing kitchen maintenance cleaning and maybe attack the bathroom, its getting bad. No, it is bad. I think I will, also, change the rat's cage or at leats see if it needs to be done.
Finally finished the ‘Fellowship of the Ring’, moved onto, and finished, ‘Temple of the Winds’, fourth book in my current favorite series, The Sword of Truth (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/search-handle-form/102-0593158-3502538) And have moved on to Neil Gaiman’s ‘Neverwhere’. If you haven’t read it, READ IT.
All of this is making the Gaslight Changeling scratchings at the back of my head stronger. I think I am going to take the plunge and start the game. I am kind of unsure how I will be as a ST since it has been a while, but I used to be good so I’ll see. No official announcement yet though... I want to finalize some of the ideas first. Maybe start the game in January, but that might be too soon. I do plan on offering the game to the Southbay list to see if I can find some new victims, err players. ; } I, also, have this sick desire to rename as many of the talent, skills and knowledges to words more "turn of the century". I figure it will help create the atmosphere.
I’ve recently decided I need to externalize something creative each day. I have been having a flood of creative ideas but have been keeping them all in my head or making notes on my Palm but doing nothing with them. I think the writing will happen much more once I get a power supply for the extra laptop Zoe has. But other creative projects can be done. Art (I have some neat ideas I want to try out), drawings, Zoe's eyes (For her website, she has been more than patient considering she asked me to make them over forever ago), Yen's coffin cabinet, ect, ect, ect...
*End Transmission
Riddle me this. How come when I have to take the train to work I get here on time but when I get a ride from Zoe and get more of a chance for sleep, I am late? Guess I get lured into a false sence of "I can sleep more".
