bjornwilde

I am holding in there but seem to be in a depressive state. I have every reason to be here but it's kind of annoying cause there are things that want doing, but I am being kind to myself and am not going to yell or grump. And no self, picking a new pup to play somewhere is not likely to lift your mood.

I've made some headway into writing what I am calling my Planar Bitches, or maybe Planar Privateers story. I've a good start of an outline and a thousand words or so of story. I know I need to get back to it but I'm not feeling it right now, so I think I'm just going to write some odd scene today and not bother with the liner writing.

This could just be the depressive episode, but I am worried Sabine is a character I love but not one I can play. I likely just need to rewatch canon.

Speaking of canon, I am loving Iron Fist season 02. Danny has grown but you still see the naive kid who made so many bad choices in season 01. I do think Netflix needs to give Luke Cage and Danny Rand a break and make a season of the Daughters of the Dragon. Colleen and Misty have such great chemistry! And to be honest, I feel like Danny does better when he's a guest.

Also, from what they keep showing in K'un Lun, no one there should ever have children, but especially the Thunderer and his wife/partner/lover/Davos' mother.

Six more episodes to go.

Got a new canon and three hours or so into the book and I love the main character. It's very niche, a Forgotten Realms/D&D book, but the main character is a tiefling (think half-devil, though the devil ancestry is from long ago and usually less than a quarter of the genetic make up) and, in one moment of weakness, made a pack with a devil for arcane power. The writing is amazing, and you really feel for the character as she's just a kid at this point, 17 if memory serves, and she's having to figure out the world, her new role, and how to not only claim her space in the world, but to stand up to this devil. It is likely some of the best writing of a teen I've seen in some time.

I'm only on the first book, Brimstone Angels, but already know I'll be reading the whole series, six books in total.

I've also almost finished Vermillion, which I am mostly enjoying. I'm loving the weird West vibe, but wishing there were more details of the world. Also I am frustrated with the writer in that the main character seems like a trans man to me but she refuses to let them be. Like the main character uses a male sounding name, only dresses in men's clothing, likes it when they are mistaken for a man, and wears a binder. I can accept all of this and them being a woman, except the binder. Like really author, you have talking bears, sea lions, ghosts, jackalopes, werewolves, vampires, gay people, a BDSM saloon/hotel, and more, but can't let your main character be trans? I think half the conflict I'm getting from the book if is they will identify as male by the end or not, which I don't think is what the author is aiming for as there's a missing persons and/or possible murder case that is the main story and I just am not invested in it.

Also the narration is a bit too sedate for my tastes. I may read a sequel if one happens, as I do like the characters and world, but I hope things change.

Aside from that, I've been enjoying The Adventure Zone podcast and the D20 Dames podcast, though the Dames much more.

Work is work. I'm trying to get out to walk and get my fitness in order but the weather hasn't been a help. I have gotten into a pretty good routine of 5-10 of yoga a day, which has helped my mobility and leg cramping/stiffness tremendously.

First day of bullet journaling went well, I thought. I'm seeing it as a To Do+Calendar+Personal Journal+Random notes sort of thing. I am also being sure to list at least one thing that I enjoyed or made me feel good during the day, which I think will go a long way.

Also getting back in the habit of bookmarking threads I am active in so hopefully I don't lose them. That's all for now.

 Sitting in a chilly 40°F (go ahead and laugh at me snow folks), waiting for the first swim meet of the season to start. Doing my best not to be grumpy at the popup that refuses to open by my efforts alone. I know this is how it's designed but my fatherly "I'll set up camp all by myself before the family gets here" pride is wounded.

The hiatus from RPG has uncovered an awkward truth, I am more productive and less surly when given more work when my head is not chanting, "You're ignoring threads." I'm not ready to completely give up RPG but I do need to figure out a balance; like maybe 15 minutes of Milliways per hour or after finishing a project.