bjornwilde

I signed up for getyourwordsout  again and am doing the Habit pledge instead of word counts. I didn't come near my pledge fo 250k words last year, but I did get 40k which I am counting as a win cause I don't know that I've ever written that much or that much on mostly one project. I decided to do the Habit pledge, writing for 250 days this year, as I feel like it'll be less intimidating for me.

So far I am behind. I don't know what it is but I haven't been inspired by any one project or even small projects. I get ideas, but I'm kind of vague on them, so I end up doing writing exercises to get my day out. Maybe I should go back to some fanfic or just brainstorm why I seem to have so passion for the ideas I've been getting.

And get back to listening to writing podcasts. I feel like those start things going for me.

I'm inclined to get myself away from Google for my writing as well. It works and it's free, but I am not so happy with having so much of my life in Google's hands. I've been looking at Dabblewritter.com, which would work for me as it is cloud based as well as having desktop apps for both Mac and PC. Pricing seems good as well, $9/month or $8/month if you pay for the year. I just am not sure about spending money if i'm not writing. Might try the 14-day trial and see how I like it.

I've also been looking at what appeals to me with headvoices for Milliways and such. I've decided I need both a good personality and a fun (to me) world. This was sparked by my long term desire to play Kady from The Magicians but then never apping her. I've half-decided that while I love her character and the world, her personality isn't one I want to play. If that makes sense.

I am eyeing a new pup, who's a nutty professor type from a high fantasy world, but I'll sandbox him until I finish the canon he comes from.
 

It's been nearly two weeks since I've gotten more than 300 words or so out. The first week I gave myself a pass, since I was start new brain candy, and I really should give myself some credit for this week, since work was very draining, but I haven't written for my story at all. I've poked at other ideas or journal entries, contemplated OOMs, but the sad fact is I keep avoiding my book. I'm not entirely sure why. I think I've nearly convinced myself I don't know what to do with the story and it's meandering, which is possible.

I think I need to reread what I've got so far and when I get back to writing, stop trying to force things into the story. Rough draft needs to just flow. I can go back once I've got something to work with to make it less self indulgent or problematic or shallow or whatever other "problem" my Imposter Syndrome self keeps telling me about.