Work is slow so...

Been thinking a lot of goals and future lately. A lot of it has been internal dialog. I tend to do that a lot. What’s been there?

Writing. When I went to the Academy of Art is discovered a few things about myself. First was that I could draw by myself, that I didn't need the crutches of trace paper and drafting tools. I, also, discovered that I had a talent for writing. I had written poetry in the past, when I was 20 or so. Some of it was even good, I think, and, honestly, not that much mopey stuff. I don’t know for sure though as I don’t have the books I wrote in any more. I haven't done enough with either of those in the past years.

But I have been thinking of several story ideas:
An epic in a fantasy world, where the humans are unknown and the "bad" guys. An attempt to bring such ideas as cultural, social and species evolution. Breaking a few of the rules about how elves are always the good guys and goblins are always the bad guys. Basically giving a stab at redefining some of the "rules" of fantasy.

A collection of Arthurian short stories written from the POV of the characters that are never in the forefront of the story. The guys who are the supporting cast so to speak. Like Mordred (I know there are a few. Mary Stewart's ‘Wicked Day’ being the best IMHO), Percival, Gawain, Delores, the Lady of Chalet and others as I think of them. But, more, to have the short stories together tell the story in a different light. I know that the redefining of Arthurian myths seems to be all the rage and that you could probably find at least 10 – 20 novels in any bookstore. But I have always thought about these guys and they won’t shut up! But then my perfectionist self says, “No you need to research the “facts” first. To make it as accurate to the myths as possible.” Plus it would be fun to add some actually historical facts as no one else seems to want too. Of course that would mean I would have to read more history. (I can see Zoe smiling now.) But then again, the mythos is one of the most evolutionary of them all.

Then there’s that old idea of “Changeling by Gaslight”. What if I write it as a story? A murder in turn of the century Paris that leads a detective to an unknown world of the Fae living in hiding.

Moving on…
Then there’s my whole problem of my Debt. Too much. Looking at it is seems like trying to climb a mountain in the middle of a mudslide. Just the student loans are bad. Even if I could afford to pay $1,000 a month, it would take 40 months and that is not including the interest. Then there’s a $2,000 credit card, plus money I owe for the seizure last year…Mudslide city. But then again the mudslide is only getting worse by my not addressing the issue or at least making plans and sticking with them. And I’m going to try and raise a child with this? It is daunting to say the least. But I need to start now or its going to make things even harder to bring a child in.

Which leads to the next wistful thinking. Going back to college. I love the idea of it. Learning again, homework and exercises (Not that I am not learning outside of school). Oddly enough, I enjoy these things, at least while I am not doing them. ; } It tends to be the best work I do for some reason. So a Degree hunting I will go, today an AA, tomorrow a BA? As to what I will study, in my fantasy world it would be a double major in Marketing and Graphic Design with a minor in folklore. Reality says it would most likely be a Major in Marketing and a minor in Graphic Design.

And the last wistful thinking, at least for now…Getting Ordained. I have been on the fence with this for almost a year now. I know I want the knowledge and all, but do I want the responsibility? Looking around at things, it seems that I am already taking the responsibility. Who knows? First things first though, I need to get the rest of my life in balance. I do think, however, that the path to Ordination will take care of its self and its not something I need to focus on for it to happen, at least for now.

Dieting and not drinking seem to be not so hard anymore. ; }

THe wolrd will be mine!!!

From Madame PC
http://test.thespark.com/untest/

The Test Results Are In!
"You kick ass."
You have a knack for greatness. For the record,you are:
92% Un-telligent!
which is significantly higher than the current average of 60%

Here is the custom report of your personality that led our team of geeks to conclude (with confidence) that you are resourceful, sly, and guaranteed to get away with everything:
"The subject shows an astounding level of intelligence, and his sense of observation is one of his best qualities. Considering this, he shows a lot of potential, but that's only part of the equation.

"Also, as much as we hate violence, an occasional mauling is one way to solve day-to-day problems like unpleasant coworkers or pesky door-to-door salesmen; he just isn't tough enough, sir, and he avoids any solution that involves violence.

"The subject is brave, however,and shows real strength in that department.Courageousness is a large part of un-telligence.

"In addition, the subject exhibits brave tendencies, and that does a lotfor his score.

"Finally, the subject displayed a healthy (better than most net freaks anyway) sense of humor, a godlike (and annoying) sense of morality, and a barbaric self-confidence. The balance of these three traits is important; high levels of confidence, medium levels of morality, and a good level of humor make for the strongest individuals."

Okay now to apply this to my life ; }