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Feb. 8th, 2007 11:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bjornwildeSo in working out I have been looking/thinking about my motivations which has lead to some interesting questions...
My motivations thus far are:
1-Get healthy. I want to be around to see as many of Katie's milestones as I can.
2-Loss weight. I want to get back to the person I used to be about 7 years ago now. (lalalal I did not just write 7 years)
3-Get in shape so when I start doing martial arts again I do not look like a complete idiot.
4-Get to know my body and learn to keep going and rise above effort to get what i want. Call it greater will power or discipline if you will.
5-Vanity.
As I was saying, I have been thinking about these and wondering how much of our spirit or identity is tied to how we see ourselves? Maybe it was seeing that half of my motivation is based on how I look and how I imagine others see me.
In my early 30s I was 200 or so #s and saw/felt myself that way (though it took some adjusting from my mid-twenties), in my
teens and 20s I saw myself as Peter Murphy skinny and in my mid-20s got that way, 150#s at one point.
(Yes I was 6'4" and weighted 150# and before you think or say that is unhealthy, I was the healthiest I have ever been in my life. Being able to walk from SF's Haight to North Beach in 45 min's and dancing for 4 hours straight is a good testament to that.)
Now I am getting to my later 30s and I don't feel like myself...I feel like I should be 200 or so not the 275 or so I am.
Which then leads to the question of when is body image healthy? We hear a lot about how body image can be unhealthy, how you should accept how you are. What if you are uncomfortable with how you are? I want to work off the "chaff" as it were to get back to a weight I can be comfortable with...to become "me" again so to speak. Is that healthy?
Anyway...time to focus on work and not try and write between printing projects.
Here are my links of the day:
GOP makes much ado about the size of Pelosi's plane. And the attacks on Pelosi begin...it only took them 2 months.
Russian fishermen catch squeaking alien and eat it
Crystals 'helped Viking sailors'
Atoms function as light-trappers and transporters
This just seems to have all sorts of coolness to it:
Afro Samurai
I have no idea why these look like a good/fun read:
Mice Templar
Mouse Guard
Why does so much of Xymox seem to be songs about girlfriends or Ex's?
My motivations thus far are:
1-Get healthy. I want to be around to see as many of Katie's milestones as I can.
2-Loss weight. I want to get back to the person I used to be about 7 years ago now. (lalalal I did not just write 7 years)
3-Get in shape so when I start doing martial arts again I do not look like a complete idiot.
4-Get to know my body and learn to keep going and rise above effort to get what i want. Call it greater will power or discipline if you will.
5-Vanity.
As I was saying, I have been thinking about these and wondering how much of our spirit or identity is tied to how we see ourselves? Maybe it was seeing that half of my motivation is based on how I look and how I imagine others see me.
In my early 30s I was 200 or so #s and saw/felt myself that way (though it took some adjusting from my mid-twenties), in my
teens and 20s I saw myself as Peter Murphy skinny and in my mid-20s got that way, 150#s at one point.
(Yes I was 6'4" and weighted 150# and before you think or say that is unhealthy, I was the healthiest I have ever been in my life. Being able to walk from SF's Haight to North Beach in 45 min's and dancing for 4 hours straight is a good testament to that.)
Now I am getting to my later 30s and I don't feel like myself...I feel like I should be 200 or so not the 275 or so I am.
Which then leads to the question of when is body image healthy? We hear a lot about how body image can be unhealthy, how you should accept how you are. What if you are uncomfortable with how you are? I want to work off the "chaff" as it were to get back to a weight I can be comfortable with...to become "me" again so to speak. Is that healthy?
Anyway...time to focus on work and not try and write between printing projects.
Here are my links of the day:
GOP makes much ado about the size of Pelosi's plane. And the attacks on Pelosi begin...it only took them 2 months.
Russian fishermen catch squeaking alien and eat it
Crystals 'helped Viking sailors'
Atoms function as light-trappers and transporters
This just seems to have all sorts of coolness to it:
Afro Samurai
I have no idea why these look like a good/fun read:
Mice Templar
Mouse Guard
Why does so much of Xymox seem to be songs about girlfriends or Ex's?
