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Nov. 12th, 2003 09:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bjornwildeThe price of getting what you want is getting what you once wanted.
- Dream
*blink*blink* I have a job.*blink*blink*
It all started last Wednesday. Applied for a position Coptech West advertised at Monster.
Received a reply for an interview the same day.
Thursday interview, it went smashing BTW. I actually said, "You need me", which they did. The person they currently had was abysmal at customer relations and the position is highly visible.
Friday get called, emailed actually, back for another interview. The email ended oddly, "Please advise as we need to move forward on your employment." 'Course that was a pretty obvious clue.
Again the interview went smashing and I even came up with questions when he asked if I had any. For example, "Yesterday I got the impression that work orders typically are 10 a day. That seems kind of light. Is that typical?" (They claim the pace is hectic.)
The guy I interviewed with had that annoying twitchy blink that some people have. You know the kind where it makes you want to blink uncontrollably? I had to focus not to do it. Hey, I wonder if it was an interview technique to keep the interviewee off balance and thus make them give answers without thinking about them. hmmmm
So this morning I got the email offer. Why Debbie, the person who will be hiring me, only emails, and doesn't call, is beyond me.
Hello Donald, Steve enjoyed meeting with you yesterday and we would like you to start Monday the 17th since that starts a new pay period. Pat our controller who also handles HR will be back today to write offer letter for you. Please advise if Monday is OK to start.
So now I am employed. Well...all but.
But there's just one problem. I worry about putting Katie in childcare. I know it will be good for her. She'll develop social skills and actually get to hang out with kids her age and not just her Dad. But all I keep thinking about it leaving her behind. Watching that retreating face as I leave. I have been with her everyday, with a few exceptions, for more than a year now. What effect is my not being there going to have on her? On me?
What if there is some kid who bullies her? What if there is a caretaker there who doesn't have the best temper?
That retreating face is all I can think of. I don't like the idea of her thinking I have left her behind. I know what that feels like, being left behind; all be it that it was more long term and permanent in my childhood. (Many different relatives and parent figures passed through my childhood. Think military brat without the military.)
I guess that is the fear in me, that I am doing that to her. Leaving her behind. I will never do that.
I know its not like what happened to me, but that doesn't change the feelings. Maybe its all just the normal parent feelings, who knows.
I just keep thinking of that retreating face. I just hope she's happy and doesn't look betrayed.
But I got a job! Which is good news, both for me, and the family. We need the cash and I need to get out of the house and get back into my field before I am left so far behind I need to go to school all over again.
- Dream
*blink*blink* I have a job.*blink*blink*
It all started last Wednesday. Applied for a position Coptech West advertised at Monster.
Received a reply for an interview the same day.
Thursday interview, it went smashing BTW. I actually said, "You need me", which they did. The person they currently had was abysmal at customer relations and the position is highly visible.
Friday get called, emailed actually, back for another interview. The email ended oddly, "Please advise as we need to move forward on your employment." 'Course that was a pretty obvious clue.
Again the interview went smashing and I even came up with questions when he asked if I had any. For example, "Yesterday I got the impression that work orders typically are 10 a day. That seems kind of light. Is that typical?" (They claim the pace is hectic.)
The guy I interviewed with had that annoying twitchy blink that some people have. You know the kind where it makes you want to blink uncontrollably? I had to focus not to do it. Hey, I wonder if it was an interview technique to keep the interviewee off balance and thus make them give answers without thinking about them. hmmmm
So this morning I got the email offer. Why Debbie, the person who will be hiring me, only emails, and doesn't call, is beyond me.
Hello Donald, Steve enjoyed meeting with you yesterday and we would like you to start Monday the 17th since that starts a new pay period. Pat our controller who also handles HR will be back today to write offer letter for you. Please advise if Monday is OK to start.
So now I am employed. Well...all but.
But there's just one problem. I worry about putting Katie in childcare. I know it will be good for her. She'll develop social skills and actually get to hang out with kids her age and not just her Dad. But all I keep thinking about it leaving her behind. Watching that retreating face as I leave. I have been with her everyday, with a few exceptions, for more than a year now. What effect is my not being there going to have on her? On me?
What if there is some kid who bullies her? What if there is a caretaker there who doesn't have the best temper?
That retreating face is all I can think of. I don't like the idea of her thinking I have left her behind. I know what that feels like, being left behind; all be it that it was more long term and permanent in my childhood. (Many different relatives and parent figures passed through my childhood. Think military brat without the military.)
I guess that is the fear in me, that I am doing that to her. Leaving her behind. I will never do that.
I know its not like what happened to me, but that doesn't change the feelings. Maybe its all just the normal parent feelings, who knows.
I just keep thinking of that retreating face. I just hope she's happy and doesn't look betrayed.
But I got a job! Which is good news, both for me, and the family. We need the cash and I need to get out of the house and get back into my field before I am left so far behind I need to go to school all over again.
